Okay so, I haven't really posted anything in my live journal yet, because I always seem to have people staring over my shoulder when I type. Luckily, Right now everyone is leaving me alone so i can get some typing in.  The New Year is here and there are a few changes I would like to make, I know I neeeeeed to diet but, I have no want or drive to do so. I didn't even make any new years resolutions but I figure late is better than never so here it goes...... I'm going to work on me and try to truly find myself, I've come to the conclusion that I am WAY to dependent on other for EVERYTHING! I need to be come more self sufficient, I need to find a Hobby that is mine.... I like to play video games but def. not as into it as Jason is. I want to be happy with life and with me. I really just want to rant every day. I keep coming across as this HUGE bitch because of it, I need to learn to let things go! And just deal with things. I also need to be more upfront with Jason, I love him and I would love to be with him but his in ability to be able to support himself or not be with me 100% of the time can get tiresome. And there are a lot of things about him that really irk me! Like doing things half ass, or just not giving a fuck about his hygiene..... I just don't know. O0o0 and Jereme totally pisssed me off today..... I'm just going to sleep all day.......... grrr.I don't think he is the one for me, But I don;t know if Jason is either! Maybe I should just stay single! I really do need to work on me and that would be the best way to do it